i dont like these posts.
because id rather the world be butterflies, puppies and rainbows without pain.
im no stranger to pain.
in February 2006 i lost my friend Shane in an auto accident.
in March 2007 I lost my friend Jesse in a river he couldnt overcome.
in January 2009 i lost Andy to a lethal and accidental combination of a prescription medication, and prescription sleep aid.
it has kind of changed me in such a way that i cant even begin to explain.
but ill try anyway.
oh, it tore me about by the heart holes.
i used to be outgoing, loud, vocal, expressive, social.
i am not introverted, overprotective, paranoid, anxious and scared.
i keep my close group of friends, and those that arent extremely close i stay in contact with via texts or social media sites. its something that has recently been revealed to me, that my personality changes were directly influenced by the loss of a friend.
its a strange thing to process, to cope with, that someone you love is gone.
with Shane, i SCREAMED and bawled. with Jesse i sat in the bathroom on the floor for God knows how long. with Andy i felt paralyzed, and thats when the paranoia and the fear set in.
i lost Andy less than two weeks after having my son. and it tore me apart.
i wont lie im sure my personality change and overwhelming and sometimes irrational fears are a form of posttraumatic stress.
but thats not what im writing about.
im writing about something more serious. the thing im most afraid of.
the most important thing in my life is my child. and i fear daily the day will come when he wont be here. and it breaks me to my core.
this organization helps parents who's children are no longer here, and offer them completely irreplaceable help and comfort.
as someone who is close to this topic, and knowing how this company has helped a friend, i couldnt not share it.
while i hope more than ANYTHING that NONE of you or anyone you know are faced with the need for these services, i just want it to be known its available so it can help as many as it has to.
much love and respect.
May.
notable sites:
additionally, if you know someone who has experienced such a loss, these points may help you to be there for them in the way THEY need, specifically from the mouths of these parents themselves.
check this link out for pointers:
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